
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CANADA!!!
Hope you're having fun today, Gary.

Song Du Jour: Sting | Windmills of Your Mind
I am home from work early tonight and I am trying to keep my mind busy. Everyone is asleep already, and I am left alone to my own devices.
I worked from home most of the weekend, although I did have a chance to take out my bicycle and ride through the Promenade for a bit. I got some sun, which lifted my spirits a bit, but then it got too hot and I left before I got too irritated by the heat.
I am at work now, and I cannot concentrate. My mind keeps wandering and I have caught myself daydreaming. Then I received an email from a friend who is right now vacationing in Paris and celebrating her wedding anniversary.
I am sick with envy.

"Boredom is an emptiness filled with insistence." ~ Leo Stein
“We must make the choices that enable us to fulfill the deepest capacities of our real selves.” ~ Thomas Merton
“Life is a sum of all your choices.” ~ Albert Camus
I grew up poor. We were always taught never to be wasteful. The pouring of the excess sprinkles in the commercial really bothers me. Some may find that commercial funny. It stresses me out on so many levels.
My OCD nature rears its ugly head when I least expect it – when I’m trying to relax in front of the television and a stupid commercial like that one makes me think of all the cleanup they had to do to pick up all the little sprinkles off the floor – and the thought of wasting all that good sprinkle when so many people in this world are starving.
Yeah. I got issues.
Meanwhile, here’s a photo of my little devil. She’s really not, though. She just likes to pretend she is with her little red devil horns. ♥

"Children will not remember you for the material things you provided but for the feeling that you cherished them." ~ Richard L. Evans
"It ain't what they call you, it's what you answer to." ~ W.C. Fields"A successful person is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks that others throw at him or her." ~ David Brinkley
"Frustration may turn into resentment today if you cannot figure out how to express yourself. It might seem as if your normal communication channels are blocked, leaving you to internalize negative feelings. But this probably has less to do with the circumstances that appear to hold you back than with your having to learn a lesson that you tried to avoid. Pay attention; this is your chance to get it right."
This was my horoscope for today. I normally don't pay much attention to horoscopes because they're so general and really can apply to anyone, but today, this hit me like a hammer in the head.
I am frustrated with a particular person who I have tried to help countless times, and who I have tried to forgive in the past for even more countless offenses, but who somehow manages to disappoint me time and again. I have cut out almost everything and everyone negative in my life, but this one particular person is a person that I just can't seem to rid myself of: G's father.
I don't know if it's out of pity or guilt that I stay in communication with him. Essentially, he's a straight-up loser and really needs all the help he can get in his life, and also, I don't want to have to explain to G when she's older as to why her father is such a low-life, so I do try to help him in any way that I can.
But it always seems to backfire in my face, and in the end, he never seems to appreciate anything I do for him, and in fact, he somehow feels as if I owe him something. I guess because he's nearly ruined parts of my life, that I owe it to him to let him ruin my whole life?
I don't know how to tell him and make him understand that I owe him nothing, that the help I give him is purely optional, and that he cannot expect any more help from me than I've already provided to him.
How do you speak to someone who never listens?
I am so proud of my best friend, who recently became the poster boy for the Marines. He's a Captain in the Marines, an aviator, and the best friend a girl could ever have.
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